Changes

I think I want to get back to writing because I have something to share.

I have enjoyed having a spot to look back on with my monthly wrap-ups, but I also feel like that's all this blog has been the last few years.

I used to share more of my heart and my thoughts and I miss that.



I feel like a lot of change has been happening within me and all around me these past few months. Good and bad changes. And everything in between.

I decided to stop selling LuLaRoe. For a number of reasons, but mostly because I just feel overwhelmed by it physically and emotionally. I feel like it's time for a change. Plus, it's been really hard working three jobs since November. And I'm really enjoying Color Street. So I'm closing up my LuLaRoe shop very soon.

My sister and brother-in-law are in the process of becoming resource family approved with the intent to adopt! I am so excited for them and this next step in their journey! And I'm excited to be an aunt again!

There have been a lot of changes at church too. I feel like things have been changing there for the past 5 years. Sometimes it feels like we are in a constant state of flux.

But in spite of all the changes, we keep moving forward in life, keep moving toward what we think we should be doing.



Josh and I celebrated our 10th anniversary in February! It's so hard to believe we've been together that long, but at the same time it seems like it's been much longer. I'm starting to forget specific dates and things from early on in our relationship that I used to remember so well. Not that I've forgotten them completely, but because so much time has passed, they aren't in the forefront of my mind anymore. It makes me a little sad, but I know that's how the passage of time works.



I might share some of my monthly wrap-ups. I might not. I've even contemplated starting a new blog to share my thoughts and leave this one as is. But I'm not sure yet. I just know it feels good to be behind a keyboard typing again.

Cherished

It's been a long time since I've sat down to write out a blog post. I had every intention of doing one in January and then time got away from me. And now we are nearing the end of March.

I'm writing this on a plane on my way home from Colorado. Of course this won't be published until quite awhile after I get home. But my heart hurts and it's time to write some words down about why.

My beautiful CO bestie, that I cherish so very much, lost her amazing sister this past week. She fought a long almost 7 year battle with cancer. She did it. She fought hard and she no longer has to fight anymore.

I remember the very first time I met her. It was just days before she found out she had cancer. She was so full of joy, even though she had no idea why her body was doing such strange things. We went on to develop a sweet friendship. I got to spend time with her on almost every one of my trips to Colorado. We bonded over our mutual love of Gilmore Girls and Harry Potter. She surprised my husband and I two Christmases ago with scarfs she crocheted in our Hogwarts house colors. She would also write me the sweetest texts and comments on my Instagram. I feel like I barely knew her but knew her so well at the same time. She instantly made me feel so loved and cherished.

Her heart for other people, for the hurting and broken, for those everyone else would ignore, was so precious. There will never be another person on this earth just like Mary. She was a special gift. A gift I'm glad to have known, even for the short time that I had with her.

I got to say goodbye to her this weekend and celebrate her life. It was such a hard day, but it was also so very beautiful. We cried a lot, we laughed, we talked about how amazing she was and we danced. She truly would have loved every minute of that day. I'm not sure that I've ever been to a funeral that "perfect" before. It was Mary through and through.

I will miss her random texts. I will miss her kind words. I will miss her voice and how truly happy she was to see me whenever I was there for a visit. I will miss so much but I will always cherish and treasure every single interaction I ever had with her.