Rest

My week was pretty stressful.
Things at work have been a little crazy. Some days, I am not sure how much longer I will have a job...or at least a job with the same little girl I'm working with. Other days, I just feel overwhelmed and spied on and just want a break...a nice, long one. I hate feeling this way, because I truly love working with this little girl. If only there weren't so many other factors and people involved...
I've also been going through a more personal struggle this week. I wanted something so bad...and it doesn't look like it's going to happen. It hurts. It makes it harder for me to believe God, to trust Him in what He says, and to keep moving forward in life. I'm doing my best...but sometimes it's just too hard...
One thing that made this week a little easier was the fact that I didn't have to work yesterday or today. My little girl was sick...not that I am happy that she was sick...but it gave me a much needed break. I was able to take a nice, long nap yesterday. I got to spend some good quality time reading my Bible. I got to watch some old TV shows that I like to watch...but am not home to watch anymore. I got to listen to some music that lifted my spirits. I watched Twilight this morning...because it was just a Twilight kind of morning. I dreamed a little more about how I'm going to decorate my house for Christmas. I cleaned my house for college group yesterday...and I didn't feel stressed to get it done in a certain amount of time...because I had more time to do it.
I needed this break. And I know God knew that. I know He was taking care of me this week. He knows how my heart is hurting right now and how stressed and crazy I feel. He knew this is just what would pick me back up and help me to continue on. I am so very grateful for that. He also provided me with just the right people to encourage and lift me up in prayer this week. I got a wonderful massage from Sondra on Monday. I got to spend some time with my dear friend Amy on Tuesday. My mom came and brought me late lunch on Wednesday. I got to spend some time with my hubby on Wednesday night after our Bible study. I have received some of the sweetest text messages this week from people I love oh so much. So while this week was one of the hardest I've had in awhile...it was also one of the most blessed weeks I've had. Funny how God works that way sometimes...

The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
Psalm 18:2

No Matter What

Ok...I have a few more words...

I was driving home from work today and this song came on the radio. It seriously made me start crying. Oh Lord, I really want to believe this right now...

I’m running back to Your promises one more time
Lord that’s all I can hold on to
I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises You
Before a heartache can ever touch my life
It has to go through Your hands
And even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why

No matter what, I’m gonna love You
No matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You no matter what, no matter what

When I’m stuck in this nothingness by myself
I’m just sitting in silence
There’s no way I can make it without Your help, I won’t even try it
I know You have Your reasons for everything so I will keep believing
Whatever I might be feeling, God You are my hope
And You will be my strength

Anything I don’t have You can give it to me, but it’s ok if You don’t
I’m not here for those things
The touch of Your love is enough on its own
No matter what I still love You and I’m gonna need You

No matter what I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You

No matter what

(No Matter What by Kerrie Roberts)

No Change

It was Not a "Tomorrow, I Love You" Day...

I wouldn't say I hated today, either...but I definitely did NOT love it...

I have no more words today.

Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I .... You, Tomorrow...

Tomorrow could change everything...or change nothing.

Hmm...

That's all I've got...for now.

Magical

It's cold and rainy today.
I was really bummed out this morning when I woke up...until I realized how amazing the weather is today. It instantly lifted my spirits. I pulled out my fake Uggs (had to shake them out to make sure there weren't any spiders making a comfy home in them. Hey, if I was a spider, I totally would), my skinny jeans, and a warm sweater. Today finally feels like fall. It's cold and dreary...and magical.
I went to a Scentsy party today and picked up the order I made at the last one. All my Christmas stuff is here! Now I am really in the mood to turn on my Christmas music, pull out my decorations, and make some yummy cookies. I don't care if it's the middle of October...I am ready!!
I suppose I can wait a little bit longer...but not much :)