Beauty in the Breakdown

It's funny to me how things work out the way they do.
When I picked the songs for the playlist on this blog, I pretty much just picked songs that I liked. I thought the first song fit well...Let Go...well, because that it what this journey is all about...letting go. But, I guess I hadn't really paid attention to the words much recently. I think it's very fitting to this whole journey.

So, let go, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
(Let Go by Frou Frou)

I think this is my biggest issue with everything in my life. I don't like jumping into things. I don't like the unknown...the possibility of taking a risk that could end badly. But, that is what faith is. It's a jump into the unknown...with the possibility that it could end badly... And, even though I believe it won't end badly, I act like stepping out in faith is like jumping off a diving board and not knowing if I will make it or not. I just don't trust enough that God really has my back, my best in mind, and that He's got it covered. If I did, this wouldn't be a constant struggle for me. I know He wants me to just let go and get in the water, because there's beauty in the breakdown. I've seen evidence of it recently...I've seen the beauty come out of my life and the lives of those around me when we take the risk. It's just the breakdown part that isn't so fun...but oh so necessary.
Oh heart, it's ok to let go. He really does have it.