Grateful

This week was a hard one in many ways.

My grandma found out last month that she had a couple of major blockages in her arteries and needed to have a double, if not triple, bypass surgery. She went into her doctor with some chest pains, thinking nothing of them, and this was the answer she got. After enduring many painful tests, she went in for surgery this morning.

All week I have been worried about it. Not many people in my family have had to have a major surgery...and some that have had major complications.

(That is my grandma on the right at our wedding)

Thankfully, the surgery went well...better than her doctor hoped...and she only had to have a double bypass. When I got off the phone with my mom, I felt joyful tears welling up in my eyes. My shoulders felt lighter and I breathed a huge sigh of relief. I didn't even realize until that moment how worried I truly was.

I've been praying, friends and family have been praying...a part of me was definitely trusting that things were going to be ok. But another part of me was entertaining what ifs...

My boss had K-Love on while I was at work and two beautiful songs came on in the midst of all of this. Gungor's Beautiful Things (which I just recently fell in love with after our worship leader played it for church a few weeks back) and Phil Wickham's Safe.

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust

You make me new, You are making me new
(Beautiful Things)

You will be safe in His arms
Cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
(Safe)

I know He was definitely holding my grandma's heart today...as well as mine.

I am oh so thankful today for life.