For the Good

I honestly wish I knew what to say.

I have mentioned many times in past blog posts that this year has been a very hard one.

I wrote out a long blog post last week about why...and then decided against posting it.

I have a hard time sharing someone else's story, even if it's not in very many details.

The one thing I can say is, I have changed, grown, and hurt deeper this year than I ever have before. My love for my family and for my amazing friends has morphed into something I didn't think possible before. My heart has been broken and shattered into a million pieces, and yet God is picking it back up and helping to mend it with each passing day.

I cling to Josh more dearly than I ever have in my life. I long to just be at home with him and to soak in every moment we can be together.

Someday, when the time is right, I will share the story (or maybe ask someone very dear to me if they would like the honor). It's a beautiful story...full of pain, yes...but covered in God's love and grace and mercy and compassion.

I've had a hard time coming to terms with why things happened the way they did, but I've been clinging to the fact that God's plan is always best, even when we don't understand it or can't see it fully. And even though I can't understand the whys, I've seen the evidence of some beautiful outcomes...and for that, I am so incredibly grateful.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
-Romans 8:28 (NIV)

This I know to be true.

And I'm choosing to hold onto His promises today.